Violence within the violent self.

Few days back I was just thinking about thinking, my thinking. Which allows me to think about a situation when I felt very violent about being violent of feeling the things around me. I felt, what is the need to go for job every day if I dont want to do the same everyday, but at the same time why to shit everyday as well or to eat everyday? How have we modulated or accommodated our self/myself to such an unwanted situation of following things in which I'm least interested into. And after that I felt that I should break everything coming into my way. I mean, not very violently but silently by improving upon the control schemes exists with in ourselves. Do we actually thing what we need actually or are we only fighting for survival?
I somehow feel, if education and our culture have played a crucial role in developing our perspective and behavior. I seriously noted few points on the behavior and style of life that we practice without any reason and cause. Like we don’t do anything on Sundays and Saturdays and why do we feel for not doing any thing on these days. No one knows, but it is habitual. It was written in our spiritual textbooks that one should wakeup early in the morning but how is it missing in urban people. More people are involved in political commentaries as they know everything about future and past of India and her inhabitants. Violence inflicted upon them if What are we replenishing continuously? Where do our interests lie? Do we believe in our action? And what I do?